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yeahcoolduck has a post on guilt and shame in relation to Dean and Sam that I think is interesting, and I’m not feeling like I’m expressing this well at all, but Dean tending to feel shame more than guilt would make sense to me because I think John basically taught him to feel shame. When Dean was a child John put inappropriate expectations on him and when Dean didn’t meet those expectations it wasn’t really Dean’s behavior that was wrong, it was Dean was a child and that was bad (and I think that time he said he was never a child shows that, on some level at the very least, he did experience it as him not being supposed to be a child, in addition to feeling bad about his ‘mistakes’). But being a child was something he couldn’t change, no matter how hard he tried, and it was something about his… existence rather than his actions? So, I can see how John’s parenting would have taught Dean that his failures are due to something bad or inadequate about himself.

Filed under dean Dean and John child abuse for ts Dean and shame and guilt i don't want to put this rambling on someone's nice post tho